And August is leaving...

7 months.

All that I have felt is changing my life's point of view. Sometimes I feel worried about the uncertain future, sometimes I feel terrified about my fate, sometimes I feel depress... Also, sometimes I am taken for the facts and thoughts...

I have stressless moments, without pain... and with happiness. Then when I am realized that all is an illusion... I feel hungry and sad about myself. Because, in this moments I feel that I am forgetting you... And I DON'T WANT IT.

I only know that always I FEEL ALONE. ALONE. ALONE. Why? Because you are not with me. No more. Never. And nobody can't do anything to solve it or to relieve my pain and sadness.

Now August is leaving... It is being very hard. Special dates without you... for the first time... And I am trying not thinking in next months or in the future...

I love you, mum

I miss you so much!